Why hyunseung cry

I hate… all of you. Hyunseung lift his head meeting Jiyong's soft gaze. That makes Hyunseung cry harder. He cried on his shoulder. Jiyong wrap his arms around Hyunseung. Hug him and pat his back. Hyunseung misses this moment so much, miss their warm hands. They always do this whenever he cried. They stayed like that for a while until Hyunseung stopped crying.

He looked around. All of them were smiling. Hyunseung shook his head as a no. Seunghyun feel relieved. He hugs Hyunseung tightly. Say something. You stunned because your beloved dongsaeng become more beautiful, right?

Jiyong just laugh it off. You personally missed him? They all burst into a laugh. Their voices fill up the empty park. They don't feel the coldness anymore. It feels warm here. Hyunseung didn't sure who is it. Its dark he can't clearly see it. That guy comes closer to them. Junhyung bowed to them. I just wanted to follow him at first.

No, I mean wait for us. With that Hyunseung and Junhyung walk out from the park. Junhyung just answered with making an OK with his hand. They walk to their dorm. Junhyung raised one of his eyebrows. Now that Hyunseung remembered he said that before. No, I mean Yeah, Hyunseung is still happy, that Jiyong and the others missed him, loved him. He stills their friend. Then should we go out?

They were talking, laughing, until they arrived at the dorm. Hyunseung take a deep breath. The two boys walk in. Hyunseung found out that the other members were sitting and lying on the floors, watching TV, and waiting for him maybe. The boys who are on the floor were startled. Doojoon woke up from his lying position. And for Yoseob, the remote that he was throwing into the air the whole time was dropped.

Kikwang and Dongwoon just smiled. I wish i didn't make a mistake. My English skill is still sucks And i wanted to write Junseung one. But I kinda forced the Junseung moments at the end of the story. Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal. Your IP address will be recorded. Log in No account? Create an account. Remember me. Share Flag Next. This fic was inspired by this. I heard plenty of other rumours too Cube did say differences in music opinions and personality.

The other members are quite the outgoing type and sociable whereas he is an introvert for the most part I guess. It's up to each of us to think what we want. I have my own speculations and so are you. As someone who has closely followed them for a couple years, I thought their relationship was deteriorating. As a big JunSeung shipper, there was obviously a difference from when they used to be close and when they weren't I've gone through it in and I was just holding on hoping they'd last another day, another month, another comeback as 6 since then coz I always had that gut feeling inside me that it was coming.

This is why I cherished every time they came back as 6 after Shadow. I never bashed Yey nor Ordinary era coz I remembered telling my B2uty friends that you'll never know what will happen and that it may have been their last OT6 comeback When that IG post happened and everything else that came with it I already had a bad feeling about it.

It was like a fanservice from them in some sort of way and their last display of that OT6 bond, whatever was left of it. If knetz and akgae fans just left Hyunseung alone since then, their separation could have been delayed until their contracts expire and we might have gotten a last OT6 comeback and a better way to release such news without hurting Hyunseung and the group but ofc they had to witch hunt him. That's both beautiful and heartbreaking.

People who aren't fans, this is the kind of stuff we were talking about when we said that fans have been holding it in for a while now like or even for some people. I guess now it's ok to talk about it. Pretty much. I avoided talking about it in public coz it feels like if I did, the chances of it becoming true will increase Maybe I wasn't there in that time, since I am following them since , but I think I know enough, I know their relationship isn't the same I was aware all this time, and while knowing that I still defeded them everytime until the last minute, cuz I know and you know their relationship isn't that weak or just a group members relationship, they cried together and they laughed together, and Hyunseung as well as Junhyung aren't thoughtless,.

Hyunseung wasn't the same and things became more obvious by time I totally saw it, I was looking after all little details to have hope, in the interviews, in their performances and I felt so down when his solo album wasn't produced by JH,. But the only thing I want to believe, the reason I first became A b2uty at first, nothing can change their hearts toward eachother. I think we should all just accept that people grow, people change and it's inevitable. I would like to believe Cube, Beast and Hyunseung did try to save the group since that was the year I was actually expecting disbandment after all Yoseob and Doojoon talking about how Beast only exist because of B2uties and somehow those words seemed really genuine and not just fanservice until it can't be saved as 6 anymore.

Regarding the controversies, Cube prob didn't think much of it when it was just going around on Pann since I remembered CLC's attitude controversies, Cube really didn't do anything about that. Completely agree on the aura surrounding the last Beautiful Show. I think they knew by then that it could be their last large-scale solo concert as six.

Yoseob being the most emotionally shaken is a huge pointer. I'm fairly sure he cherishes and values the 'group' more than anyone else in Beast. It's even more understandable when we consider it was Yoseob who helped Hyunseung get into Cube Ent. Like sensing the trembling from her body, HyunSeung tighten his holding, sent his warm into her with fragile hope that she would understand his feeling. It felt like years in that confine space, one was pleading silently, one was fighting back her her own softness and a screaming heart.

Looked at his current bad status, HyunA knew the barrier would be downed sooner than she had intended, truly…. HyunA felt his warming sensation flooded out quickly the moment his mother and sister came in. Surely he did not want them to acknowledge the turmoil of this fight, so did she. HyunA was stopped by that sentence right before the door was closed completely, the simple truth that, in overwhelmed hurt feeling, she pushed it away like it had not been ever existed.

She patted it away. He got his problems but she also had the right to ask for sophisticated caring. Though the anger, honestly saying, was depleted gradually since the first glance of his unstable status. She knew she still loved him a lot. Is it okay? To her, JiYoon was like a strict sister, who cared and protected younger sisters with high level, sometimes unnecessary.

GaYoon looked at JiYoon then swept her eyes pass JiHyun before clung them on final target with an undefined expression, like she was pondering whether spitted it out or not. Today was not a nice day after all, then one more thing would not kill her anyway. I think he secretly likes her. If he did that, he was acting.

Maybe he had considered carefully before the question was ended. That guy, sometimes took thing too serious to be true. I know you guys worry for me. But, this, no need. All I care is my own emotion, ignore his concerns and private problems? But today, when I was with him in hospital and met his family. I started to consider about the whole thing. Maybe they could not help but letting all of negative emotions overflow was her best way to figure out the final answer.

The room was filled with silence as everyone in it was chasing their own ideas. The first thing HyunSeung checked in the next morning was his phone. No message from her. Could not help but sighed heavily, the young man groaned lightly as he laid back on the bed. HyunSeung would love to tie her up, throw her on the bed, drain out all of her energy before starting to tell her everything but he was well aware, that method only made things worse this time.

This was all his fault! But last night, while holding her hand and sensing her light shivering, he could feel that the intensity had lessened, well, though the situation still very, very dark. He had thought that she would text something like asking about his state but indeed silence was still her answer. HyunSeung absolutely would not let it happen.

By the time HyunSeung felt a little dizzy because of sleep lacking, the door was opened and the young man rolled his head toward that direction. The lightheadedness was lingering there. Doctor said I can leave tomorrow. Just a little exhaust. JunHyung must be here, why? I just think after what he did for you. He would be here to look after you. His head and heart was suffering enough aching sobs of serious fight with HyunA, and now these two came to talk nonsense.

If he was strong enough, definitely they would be thrown out like little puppies. This guy was still wincing about your problem with JunHyung after we found out a little secret.

But he cares for you, truly. While he truly felt unfair for JunHyung, but it was not uppermost in his mind around this period of time. What troubled him most was how to fix his relationship with HyunA as a whole and his financial issue for future.

There were a lot of thing needed to be paid in order to build a happy family and he was working so hard on it. In fact, HyunSeung thought about doing other businesses but to start-up something, first, he had to hold an amount of money.

No, the young man thought as he sipped at the cup of fresh water. HuynSeung was up and packed early in the morning before JunHyung came to pick him up, despite the fact he was not completely recovered. However, his tight schedule did not let him to have much time to be lazy in this place. Beside it, admittedly, once, an all-in-work man like him, now had a place to rest his heart, she was where he wanna belong to.

The young man, indeed, found no problem about having hix ex around for now. After everything, maintained a harmonious relationship with BEAST, especially with this man was a right thing to do.

Moreover, he did not dislike him, or in another way, there was a debt that should be paid later. Then together, they left the hospital secretly. Only imagine about hundred of fans came here with banners and flowers would make HyunSeung felt headache. HyunSeung let soft music cradle his aching mind in a short nap until JunHyung shook him gently when they already were at CUBE, readied for a hard day. Thank to God, the whole day ran smoothly and when the sun was shrouded by darkness, HyunSeung followed JunHyung to his apartment.

He wanted to put an end on this then focused in his more important issues. JunHyung gulped the night air gratefully. It was cold and dry even after nightfall, so unlike the hot and damp air of the summer when they had been together. Because from now on, everything should come clean and clear, they were both well aware of it.

Sometimes I have a thought of coming back to you. During this cold war with her, I feel very guilty for what I did to you. I had thought so, until the day I found her. I feel alive. He had meant this exactly as he said it. He got back home late that night and found her tiny frame was curling on the couch. Slowly, he approached her then kneeled down, next to her.

A weak but sweet smile appeared on his thin lips when his own voice was singing softly from the phone in her hand. Carefully but firmly, HyunSeung brought down his head to place a tender kiss on her lips and stayed there for a long moment with eyes closed.

In her dreaming state, HyunA seemed to hear a loving lullaby, composed by his own concerns that she stubbornly refused to hear while awake. When opened her eyes, all she could see is thousands of tiny dusts were dancing in warm sunlight rays, which were lurking inside her room through the thin curtain. She still remembered why she had chosen this apartment, the whole place was shaped in big windows, welcomed sunlights every morning… which later she found that he shared the same taste with her, just different reasons.

But… hey… last night, if her memory did not fool her, she had fallen asleep on the couch. Not in her room. Then… the lullaby had been singing last night was not a form of imagination.

HyunA sat up slowly and looked down to the place next to her. She smiled a little, though it was tinged with melancholy. The girl bowed to everyone in the room before talking to the composer and producer, tried to pretend that she did not see that thorn, the thorn name Yong JunHyung. HyunA looked at him then looked at the producer, pondering what she should do or perhaps deep down, she secretly wished that the producer or anyone else could save her from this awkward moment.

HyunA could not help but reluctantly nodded and followed JunHyung out of the room, while her mind still shouted crazily that she should not do this. Strangely, like the whole company had been evacuated to somewhere else, there were only two of them silently walking and hearing their own footsteps echoed back.

I lied. The rest is up to you. HyunA slowly swallowed her food as if she was trying to swallowed her own pride. The whole plot had been revealed but she still struggled about what she should do from now on. Do you have any plan for future?

HyunA stared at him as his question sprang to her mind, the thing she had not thought about it yet. I think you should think about what should do next. Will you come to watch? That boy works like crazy, huh. BEAST is in comeback and he still manages to attend a musical.

The respond from audiences was good as he regarded, which made him happy for they acknowledged his capacity and that he had stepped further in the career he chose to pursuit from the beginning.

But every time this darkness welcomed his sight, HyunSeung could not help but felt so cold. Nothing made him more vulnerable than loneliness, especially from her.

Their strict schedule and their quarrel prevented him from caring her like the happy past. HyunSeung easily felt his heart dropped to his toes every time he came back and saw an instant noodle cup on their table. HyunA liked it but eating them every fucking day unquestionably was not her choice. More than that, not his choice! The night was deep but dream had not yet found her. For the first time since he came back from hospital, HyunA decided to make it to the last judgement. While she loved him, longed for his touches and above all, she cared for his health but the insane obsession of uneasiness still insisted in the back of her mind; she, simply could not stand the feeling of being embraced by a pair of arms that had just wrapped around another woman.

But only touch me after you finished your last stage. The black hair girl thought he would feel hurt but indeed, for the first time in this crazy period, a slightest smile could be seen on his gloomy face. Though he was not sure what she was getting at, but one thing was clear. The seal was lifted off. From that day, HyunA continued let HyunSeung sleep by her side every night but the ban was still effective. She restarted her old home fashion like old days, walking around the whole apartment only with his shirt on.

However, she did not figure out the reason why HyunSeung usually ignored her presence lately. She remember once she was angrily asked him why, was it the way he took revenge on her? And his answer was beyond her imagination which made her giggle all day. His cuteness-overloaded answer, honestly saying, became the brilliant reason for her to tease him more. The truth, sometimes was not enough. Such as go to bath without closing the door or loose more buttons of his shirt when they got chance to be together….

Looking at his frustrated expression was more than the most interesting comedy in this world to her. His cute sometimes was rewarded by a light kiss on his cheek, that HyunA thought she also rewarded herself with his bright grins.

Once she secretly checked his phone, and found his calendar board was on a countdown with last day was the day they could be whole again.

HyunA could swear that was the best moment in her life. One more month has passed and the final judgement-day had come. Honestly, HyunSeung felt a great burden had been lifted off his shoulders and heart. But I have personal errand to do. The happiest one she had ever seen from the day they had started to work together. Maybe he had a date with a special girl. So then she just smiled and waved goodbye. The young man stormed into their apartment to find the girl he loved most was watching TV alone.

I hate the musical smell on you. But HyunSeung knew, she was not angry anymore. Though the only thing he wanna do right now is holding her tightly and kiss her but her stern expression was giving him no choice but obey her command. A pair of arms slid across his chest and pulled his back into a tight embrace while HyunSeung was shampooing his hair. Hate you for not think about my feeling. Hate you to carry everything on your shoulder without letting me involve.

Hate the way to throw me aside from your problems. Her voice shattered with the last word and a hard sobbing filled their confine bathroom, prevailed even the sound of running water. HyunSeung turned toward her and gazed at her for a long moment. One arm trailed to her back to pinch her body closer, as if no layer of air could intervene between them while his right hand held her face tightly to plunge into a rough kiss.

HyunA slid her hands inside his wet hair while letting her lips be entwined intensely. The kiss was deep from the beginning, suffocated both of them but instead of restarting with tender kiss, they broke then crashed into other passionate ones like all they had been waiting for this moment from past life. The sensation was rising inside them like a seemingly unstoppable tide. HyunA let out a small moan when her back hit the wall behind while his lips gently sucking her neck, promised to leave back an visible hickey tomorrow… But who fucking cared about it right now?!

The noise of morning alarm knocked JunHyung out of his slumber. Could not help but his lips naturally curved into a smirk for his boy still stayed the same in his bad habit of morning rise. The alarm could wake the whole fucking dorm except himself, refused to escape his dreaming domain.

Those profound memories now were nothing but stinging needles in his tired and hopeless soul. Exhaled a weary sigh, JunHyung placed the phone back to its original place and unintentionally, his sleepy eyes caught a convert glance on the figure he was still deeply in love with.

The room was fill by a suffocating air from the last night, nothing different with the last breath he had taken it before gloomily drifted into unrested sleep by his own monotone one-side conversation.

Heavily, the feet dragged him into bathroom for now, the morning had grown teeth anyway, get back to sleep could only give nightmare a chance to step inside his already misery mind. After a quick shower, JunHyung walked out to wake HyunSeung up. Despite fiery expression while awake, HyunSeung looked very innocent at night when his curtains peacefully shut the whole world outside. Damn, he really wish for just a little longer sleep. Last night was not a pleasant one indeed.

Though could not see his face and the content clearly but JunHyung well knew that HyunSeung is letting out a sheepish smile with that silly message from his girl.

JunHyung pretended to fix his hair when another text came, HyunA with her fresh face and naked shoulders popped up on the screen. JunHyung turned away. Sometimes, knowing too much was not a right choice for his fragile heart, perhaps a little reckless would grant the peace that he was seeking right now.

In the end, JunHyung did nothing wrong and deep down inside, a stir of guilty still lingered around his heart for what he had done with the guy who now standing before him. HyunSeung could not judge surely whether it was honest or what but for now, after last night, he did want to make up with JunHyung, perhaps because of the uneasy feeling they had or perhaps something he had not yet figured it out.

But YoSeob did not feel the same way, he kept his mouth closed, only let his eyes showed a glint of disbelief. The tour was fun, mostly because of the love that Japanese fans had showed in every performance and the new Japanese single plus MV were done perfectly.

HyunSeung could not ask for more in the first three months of this Now he was on the plane back to Korea, where his love was waiting.

He looked up and found his manager, Ji Yong hyun was standing in front of him with papers on his hand. It was too busy so I forgot to tell you immediately. I thought your image struck them hard, hahahaha. He knew he did good in NOW era, well, all because of the love they shared.

Alone again since YoSeob was sleeping soundly next to him, HyunSeung carefully read the file, wondered if he should take this job. He missed her dearly. You knew it. Although HyunSeung was good and he also helped HyunA a lot lately, specially with her vocal problem, but looking at how the girl always was hyper to the max every time he was around somewhat caused an anxious issue in her. Just 2 or 3 hours laters, I can see him. Why do I feel like this? This emotion annoyed her also, admittedly.

Slowly approaching the handrail, HyunA exhaled a long sigh to calm this turmoil down. JunHyung appeared in her eyes when she turned around. The guy looked… contented due to some reasons that she thought she would not wanna know. Every time he made a scene in her story, nothing good came along. Well, surely. HyunA followed his pose but could not remove her gaze from his face, wonder dancing in her mind about what this guy would write on her story this time.

He loved you now, more than he loved me. I heard you guys is doing good! Though he changed the subject in attempt to interject levity but her heart was to earnest to chuckle along. That unfinished sentence unconsciously hooked a deep claw in her heart and purposely scratched long lines across that little poor thing. I heard HyunSeung decided immediately after was offered the role Clyde in the musical.

There will be a lot of kissing scenes as I watched on Youtube before I came here. So, as a friend, I think you should prepare. HyunA could not heard anymore, like the wind suddenly became an abrupt howling, drowning all the sound out her ears. Why did HyunSeung tell her that nothing serious between them? How foolish she was! They had been together in two years, how could nothing not happen back then?

A wind brushed over her skin, as she thought, well, it was just past tense right? A little white lie could not harm their love… but was there any other hidden truths? And for now, HyunA thought wearily, that should be all. HyunA sat on the couch with the only light source from her Ipad, felt like she was the only one being thrown out of the large picture which the center spot should be reserved for her from the beginning.

His existence in this moment cut her heart into thousand tiny pieces. In the dark was created by her own, HyunA felt the seat next to her was pressed down before a familiar warm warped around her shoulders, the warm she always long for… now turned into a clenching hand, brutally strangled her throat.

HyunA took a deep breath and the moment the air returned back from its adventure inside her aching body, the girl snapped back her eyes, welcomed the light. She took another deep breath to calm down but in vain, she knew it.

She was well aware of the answer before asking him but why the anger still could be his painful. That little brain urged her to shout out how angry she was but all the thing she could feel right now is NUMB, the feeling of being chained by an unknown force, no matter how she tried to open that fucking mouth, the trying failed into surreal abyss.

Am I not that deserved to know it from your own mouth? But I need this. The way she was talking told him that HyunA was struggling with her own emotion…. I can see… Just walk away from me. In the next moment, he found his feet was rooted on the floor, watching the shut tight door where her frame had disappeared behind minutes ago. HyunSeung was still standing dumbfounded in their living with empty mind. What he had done was questionable but he really needed this chance.

Some years later, he had to join military, then how about his mother and sister… Beside, beside… he wanted to marry her before that… He desperately needed a firm finance and career. That he was trying his best for them all. Yes, the intimate scenes were uneasy for her but he had hope she would calmly listen to his story but maybe, she was right, he was too arrogant to careless to her feeling.

There was no sound at all but that of silent breathing against his chest. Misunderstanding was like a spark and love was dry and given to the flame.

HyunA thought she could cry easily like many other times they had a fight but anger devoured them all. This nasty emotion was dancing in her heart and strangely, she was enjoying it, welcoming it to her world, tasting a little bit of it since this was the first time they were introduced to each other. How stupid she was with the idea of being his first priority.

Today the cruel showbiz world again smashed her face, laughed on her naive confidence about someone would because of her that reconsidered his chance to claim up to his trophy.

So then, he would have gotten angry because the CF she had done with LeeJoon with little twist to help him out, just had not had chance to tell him everything. He even stabbed a knife into her heart with his cold-blooded breakup, fucking not give back a glance to watch her shattered.

But just took a look now, had he ever drifted his thought about her feeling when he signed that contract? Like she was his little doll, the only waiting one it seemed…. Her swear woke him up from a brief nightmare of a white night. When he opened his eyes, HyunA was in her sleeping suit, washed away the image of little frame loosely inside his white shirt like every other morning.

She was trying to make breakfast. His eyes painfully followed her busy morning… her eyes never set a glance on him. She gathered him merely a hollow man. Okay, bye. HyunSeung opened his mouth again to call her back, but it was as if the utter shock snatched the words out of this mouth. Their tight schedules did not let them have many times to see each other lately. When he came back home, HyunA had gone to sleep, that was the cases these days.

The only thing welcomed him by the time he stepped into their house was the heavy darkness, like an abandoned house with vengeful spirits sitting on his exhausted shoulders uneasily. HyunSeung sighed heavily then walked toward the bathroom, where he found his beloved was sleeping in the bathtub. She did not turn on the light but even with poor source from the scented candle was burning near her, HyunSeung still could see the stream of undried tears on the cheeks when he kneel down beside her.

But right the moment his hand gently caressed her head, HyunA blinked twice before her vision became clear. In front of his pale face, the girl stood up and stepped out of her bathtub without giving a glance to his existence. Will you be normal again? HyunSeung was waiting for his part in practice room of the musical while head was filled with the image of happy HyunA lately.